The breath of fresh air that many of us take for granted. I say, us, as speaking for myself as well! Never look back! I have had in my life unfortunately had my freedom completely taken away which I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. By going to prison on a 3-year sentence and 3 months on an ankle monitor. As soon as I got that mofo off, back down I went.
But this time it was the worst expression of freedom ever lost! I lost Amy, the sweet nice girl! The girl that laughed, that was helpful, the girl that loved herself. Actually, knew herself! Loved Amy for Amy!
Then came Amy D… the bitch that drank, did hot rails, popped Xanax. Blowing and Going! Didn’t give two shits and fuck what anyone said or thought. I completely lost freedom of myself. Self-love, respect of myself as well as for others.
They say you can’t love anyone if you don’t love yourself. Do you think that? I can be the first to tell you I had never in my life had so much Hatred!
Everything from the past 2 years had become a blur (looking back). After losing my cousin to murder, my dad died in a high-speed chase from the police in Colorado, my dog Zoie died from a heart attack and die, and 8 friends following that, passed away… I had my middle fingers up to God and anyone who got in my way.
Everything continued to spiral down blacker & darker… down, down I went! ROCK BOTTOM! Getting high wasn’t even fun anymore. Looking at alcohol made me cringe… I was sick and fucking tired! I lost Freedom of my life!
2 years of going back and forth of looking for the 24-year-old punk that allegedly shot my cousin in the head! I was thinking homicidal thoughts! I wanted them all to pay! But I knew deep down I knew I had to forgive those people, but fuck that.
I decided to forgive myself for the sake of them! A long time coming I had to set myself free! Free from all the dark, negative, evil… drugs, gangs, streets, alcohol… depression, anger, grief, depression, and Hate! So, on this journey I go! Thank you, my new Family and Friends! As my cousin is flying high… One Day at a Time I fly peacefully! Living Life FREE! One Day at a Time!